Wow. When did I last visit my blog. I am not sure. Lots has changed in my life that keep me busy from writing. I started this blog to have something to do while I was looking for a job. A distraction. Or simply an occupation. I never thought I was going to start working a month after I started blogging. Turns out, I did get a job at a bank. Very fancy eh? Well kinda is kinda isn’t. I have a lot to do and a shit load of responsibility. Being a grown-up is hard. NO lie. To all those students or high school kids. Enjoy your freedom while it last. I sound like being an adult is torture, I mean it isn’t easy at first but I am guessing as you get the grind going and know what you are doing things get easier. Now I am just working from Monday to Friday, from 8:30-4:30. It’s pretty nice but tiring.
There is a lot to learn and do and not enough time to complete it. I also have an anxiety of doing things right the first time around and I’ve learned that in a job there is a learning process that you must go through in order to be able to handle everything that is coming your way.
I am doing better then when I started but I am still having a hard time to get into routine. I have a lot of stress surrounding me and I do not know how to handle it. IT’S OVERWHELMING. I have so much on my plate sometimes I feel like I need help or another person to do half of what I need to do. I am happy for having a job and have a consistent pay, but it comes with a price… STRESS, STRESS, and MORE STRESS.
It isn’t all bad, I have more flexibility with money now and can go shopping and not worry about paying bills. I think.. I am not sure but I think I am adjusting to a new chapter in my life. It is a big change and it’s my first full-time job. I am not loving it but I am living it. I believe it will get better but I need to relax and enjoy what life has given me.
I think I need to sit back and appreciate what I have accomplished and then keep moving forward with what I need to do.
I also need suggestions on how to relax LOL. My boyfriend says I worry and stress to much when I do not need to, which is also affecting our relationship. Surprisingly, we were fighting less when I was not working. Now that I am we fight so much to the point that I do not know what I want and come to the conclusion of leaving him.
But then I do not want that. SO I do not know what I want. This has all started since I started working. I am trying to figure out things and not come to a conclusion which is what I do for everything… Sorry if I got to deep, I kinda just ranted on about things.
Overall a lot is going on. More then I had anticipated. But to look at the positive things, I have a patient boyfriend, summer is on its way and I will be going away on vacation to Quebec City. So excited!!
If anyone has any tips on de-stressing send me a message, I will love to hear about them.
Confused & Twenty 