So it has been sometime since I’ve written anything. A lot has happened since my last post. I finished my contract at the place I was there for a week, luckily they extended my contract for another week so it was a total of two weeks. Now I’m currently at home looking for jobs once again and waiting for any contracts that may come my way.
It is a big change, for me as I was working Monday to Friday from 8:30-4:30 now I’m currently just sitting at home looking at a screen. It came to my mind how long I will be in this position of not having a permanent job. I have had offers but they weren’t what I was looking for, basically they aren’t fully permanent. But then i think if I made the right choice by not accepting them.
I’m not totally confused as I was in December but that worry of not having a full time permanent job does concern me. I do know what I wanna do but I don’t see it coming my way. A lot of my friends and family say keep grinding, and do what I’m currently doing. But sometimes I feel like I’m doing nothing.
Many of my friends are still in school and are like wow you really are getting into the business world and reaching out to jobs and I’m like bro, you don’t even know how hard it is. Lol. I sound like I’m dealing with a horrible situation in my life. It really isn’t horrible. But I want to succeed and never fall behind. That’s what i fear. To fall behind.
So yes I’m back to second thinking about my life, my career, my job. But there is something positive about this journey. And I know I’m only 22 just graduated… blah.. blah.. blah.. but it’s always good to want more and push yourself. So keep pushing and grinding. I’ll never stop saying those words.
Confused & Twenty 